Thirty Seven

Anger, fear frustration disappointment offense… are truly the feelings or emotions that hinder us from experiencing and enjoying life. I recently turned 37 years old. I know some people who get out of sorts as they age and complain about not wanting to be or act old. These are the same people with aching backs, overweight or just plain miserable because their lives didn’t turn out as expected.

Whose life ever turns out as expected?

My life certainly did not turn out as the way I thought it would 20 years ago. I assumed that I would be married with at least three children by this age and blossoming in my career as a filmmaker and writer.

The reality is that I am single, childless and working in corporate America for a life insurance company. How did that happen? Easily. It was God’s will. He placed opportunities that led to where I am without even knowing. I am exactly where I am supposed to be.

I have my dog Irie, have made great friends, my job is secure, my boss is awesome, I live in a great community, I love my new trainer, my parents are together and happy, my brothers and sisters are healthy, my bills are paid, my friends are supportive and doing well, I’ve got my mojo back… I could go on and on.

I did not become a filmmaker and the awesome thing is that I no longer want to be. I want to be an example. I don’t harbor any knocks in my life because I would not be who I am today without them.

37 is a good age. I can honestly say that I don’t feel it though and I am not bragging but I know for damn sure that I do not look it either.

I look forward to what God has for me in the future and I’ve let go of ideas from the past or what society says where I should be at this stage in life.

I am exactly where I should be.